Hospice

First of all, I'd like to express my gratitude and appreciation to all the support, love, and positive energy you have directed toward Susan.

Previously, I mentioned that Susan and her oncologist Dr. Rugo were contemplating a next treatment (FU-5) if Susan were strong enough. Today, I think that there was a mutual decision not to continue with any cancer treatment. Susan's shortness of breath, fatigue, and other associated symptoms are increasing, and her weight loss has been dramatic as she has been eating (and drinking) less and less. Susan's palliative care internist Dr. Rabow prescribed morphine for the shortness of breath, and I think it is helping--she was ate some ice cream a couple of times today (there goes the no dairy/no sugar routine) along with other things.

Dr. Rabow and Susan also discussed EOL and hospice (the 2 are not mutually exclusive), and, at this point, we will set up home hospice as soon as we can with the goal of keeping Susan as comfortable as possible. We hope her experience with hospice is as good as has been conveyed by several of you.


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